Shared Transformation
Introduction to Issue 4
There was a time early in my process when I was nearly paralyzed. I could barely hold a spoon
to feed myself, much less hold a pen to write. There were long periods when I was too physically sick and/or too
expanded in altered states of consciousness to compose even a grocery list. Later, there were episodes when I
was so hypersensitive to electrical fields I couldn't bear to be in the same room with a running computer, and
I wondered if I would ever be able to use mine again. When we got the idea for Shared Transformation, I worried
that I might be making a premature commitment. I never know what condition I'll be in; I have no idea if I'll
be physically or mentally functional from one day to the next. But so far, putting together this newsletter has
been blessed by the powers-that-be. I've found that writing about my experiences is a compelling part of my own
voyage of self-discovery. Once I began, the words came pouring out of me like lava. I've already written enough
to fill newsletters well into the year 2000 (well, maybe 1995). Sometimes, I wish we could put out more frequent
issues, but then we would have to charge twice as much and work much harder and perhaps defeat our whole purpose.
One of the things my awakening has revealed to me is there are multiple levels to everything. I know there are
designs running deeper than the plans we propose. I've noticed two underlying issues that seem to reiterate everywhere
I turn; I am facing them again in my hopes and fears for Shared Transformation. Slowly, I am learning: Patience
and faith.
-- El Collie